Jaw Drop

IMG_20160520_104941I’m going to a Writer’s Conference this weekend, and as part of the conference registration you get to have a Blue Pencil (critique) session with a professional writer/editor. I sent in a short story I wrote a couple of years ago, an off-the-cuff piece about a girl who gets a marriage proposal she can’t refuse. I was feeling quite insecure about it – the blue-pencil presenter I’m having my session with judges short story competitions and is a professional editor, and, well, you know my rambling, drivelly style…

I fully expected her to tear the piece to shreds. I’d gone over it plenty of times, but couldn’t think of what else to do with it to improve it; it really was the best I could do with this story. So I just hit “send” on it, casting it on the waves – what will be, will be…

Then this morning, I get back an email from her. With fear and trembling, I open the message, and here is what it said:

“Hi Angelika, I really enjoyed your short story! In fact, it’s so good that I really don’t have a lot of advice to offer. Would you like to email me and bring the first 5-6 pages from another writing project to our consultation this weekend?”

And there I sat, with tears running down my face. Literally, that classic hand-clapped-to-open-mouth, laughing-and-sobbing-in-disbelief pose.

I carried my laptop downstairs to show the message to my Man, dried my cheeks, re-read the mail about another half a dozen times, then booted up my book files and found another piece to send to the editor. The first chapter of Star Bright – we’ll see what she has to say. At this point I’m willing to take almost anything from her.

Life, the Universe, and a Jaw Drop. Maybe I am a real writer, after all?

Author: quillandqwerty

writer, editor, maker of things

17 thoughts on “Jaw Drop”

  1. Cheers, applause! You let it go… what happens, good stuff! Congrats. What an opportunity to share more, especially Star Bright from camp! So excited for you! Have fun at the writer’s conference.
    Dream Big Always,

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    1. Thank you! And the thing is, I really needed that right now – been sitting in the low-self-esteem hole for a while. What a boost!


    1. Thank you! You know how you can tell yourself stuff like that over and over, but it’s not the same as when a “real” professional says so… πŸ™‚

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  2. From your first “real fan” — when can I read it??? And yes, I love your writing, since the first time I saw one of the early copies on my aunt’s coffee table and knew I had to read that story. Thanks for sharing your gift with us!

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  3. That moment is a very sweet one, that you’ll always cherish. Of course, you must now think, it was merely confirmation of something you always knew to be true, yourself and that finally, someone can see what you see. Congratulations and next time you send a story away, just think, if you get a negative reply, well, it wasn’t for them or they just didn’t get it.

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  4. I hope you are having a wonderful time at the conference and soaking up lots of writerly wisdom and having your confidence boosted even more – because of course you are a real writer, and I’m so thrilled you got to have a professional (not just fellow struggling-writer friends) confirm it.

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    1. Yes, conference was awesome! And thank you again for your ongoing encouragement, even if it’s “just” from a fellow struggling writer. Actually, there’s no “just” about it…


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